Hey, are you absolutely certain you aren't kidding yourself now?? These dark feelings can be brought on by depression, or any number of things. Believe me, I KNOW how hard it can be to carry on when it seems like things are hopeless, but you MUST not give up!
Questions: Do you love H? Does he love you?
"He'd be better off without me" is a dangerous conceit. Yes, things may not be a bed of roses at the moment (understatement of the CENTURY), but KEEP TRYING!! Go and read in the Divorce Remedy forum - read the first chapter (I bet you even have the book, don't you?) Do you REALLY think that giving up will solve the problem? Are you SURE there's nothing left to try?
You seem really motivated to improve things, at least you did up until this post. I always felt you really had things together. Please tell me you're just in a funk!
