{Aquarian}, You know better than any LD what you have to do. You've read the books, been on this forum and posted 228 messages and that is enough theory. It's time to put it into practice. Bite the bullet, take Michele's advice and "JUST DO IT". We all love you to bits Aquarian and desperately want you to find your way. Once you are "Just doing it" bring all your worries here and me and the 'dog, CeMar, Dave36, Corri, Tim47 and everyone will be here to help you. SD xxx