WAW-- LRT in action

[SadDood]

Have spent the last week reading forum posts and have found it incredibly helpful, particularly Sandi's 37 List.

Wife told me last week ILYBINILWY, and I did all the wrong things. Begged, pleaded, promised to change. A few days later she told me the M was over. Pointed out how disrespectful I have been and that she has never been happy with me. Choked up, I asked if she wanted a D, and she said yes. Two young children, 4 & 6. I left the house and stayed at a friends house. I didn't eat for two days and had many suicidal thoughts. Went to a counselor first thing monday morning. It helped greatly. Was diagnosed as bi-polar II and prescribed lamictal and lexapro. Luckily, I found this site. Have been doing LRT and have already noticed a difference in W. She's pointed out some of my 180's which I did not acknowledge. It is now Thursday and my outlook is much better. I genuinely feel at peace and am no longer suicidal. I've put on a brave face and have acted like a fun loving H around my kids (I've come home when they arrive and had dinner with W, and helped put kids to bed). After putting the kids to bed, I quickly say good night and gather belongings and head out the door. Went to MC solo today, and have a couples appointment set for Monday. I live in a rural area and could not find DB or DR at any of the local stores. Will look for it when I head to the nearest large city soon. W hasn't seen an attorney yet, not sure if there is an OM or not. She says there is nothing going on, she's just sick of me. Intuition tells me otherwise. longer story, but trying to keep this brief.