Had a really good sleep last night. Woke up bright eyed and bushy tailed ready to see SS and his Mum today for lunch. Had a couple of text exchanges with H. I wanted to check if SS & XW knew about the redundancy - they do.
I've decided that for me, it is right for NC to come to an end now, and I'm going to check in on H a bit more often on a friendly basis. Just to see how he's doing and with no expectations. I want to be 'there' for him during what may be a tough period. But I'll monitor how things go, and remain very aware that I really don't know the status of things.
It struck me last night that H may go through a phase a bit like I went through after BD. He has left work already and said in his email 'suddenly I have nothing to do.' He has lost his job (like I left my job) and now faces losing our home (which I 'lost' after BD). I wonder what he'll 'do' with this period of time. He has been so busy for so many years, it will be pretty weird for him.
Anyway, it's good to feel on a more even keel. It's good to know that whilst things might unsteady you, it's only for a couple of days, and I'm back on my 'perch' again - at least for now. :-)
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
