Train, Thank you so much, i feel as you feel. My only question about the sitch that made me think about dropping is, If i am to let go of her completely and find myself i was just wondering if i am truly letting go while still holding that NC over him. I am going to take some time to think about this. I will stay in touch here but i am going completely dark from W i even told her that if she needs something she needs to send it through a friend. no notes, texts, emails, no nothing. I believe that i am doing the right thing and i do not feel like i should drop these charges he made his bed as she did and he can sleep in it as she can. and MY feeling is, IF he loves her and she loves him they will find a way point blank. I have started journaling about what i want to say to her. that is straight to the point but expressed what i feel and want. without leaving any room for debate. I AM WORTH MORE THAN WHAT SHE IS GIVING ME, I AM WORTH MORE TO MYSELF, I AM A BETTER MAN THAN SHE DESERVES. I see this and i know who i am. she will have to deal with her choices while i am going to look forward in anticipation to my future and my growth.
