Well she's been texting and calling me and that's been weird for a couple of days because we've not talked that much in a long time, it was nice I almost felt like she was caring for me. Then tonight distant, cold, and reminding me she is going to T's hour for the weekend. She informed me she would go right after work tomorrow and come home Sunday. I told her sounds good have fun. Then told me she is going to get her nails done and go to the movies. "Great have fun!" Doing my best to be supportive I guess. I'm trying hard to believe her but it's hard to trust. I still don't trust her for some reason though I have found no evidence of an A. It's hard to trust when you've been left alone for so long. The weekend is going to be filled with fun kid stuff. So I'm really just trying to focus on that.
She also told me she told our son that she was going to her friends and she said when I asked what he said, he was fine with it. On the other hand I asked him when she was not around and he said "she always leaves to spend time with her friends and go get drunk." He knows what she's up to. The boy knows and I could see and hear the pain he has. I told him not to worry that he, I, and his sister were going to have a fun weekend. He said "we don't need Mommy!" I feel bad for him, this poor boy. I feel bad for her because she has no idea how much she's hurting him. It's breaking my heart, then to let her go without giving her a piece of my mind is just as tough! Uggg! Staying strong for my kids!
