Was the past 18 years just a waste?

[June315]

OK, I have been looking for activities for myself. Trying to come up what would make me happy or excited. It was hard because I couldn't come up with anything for a while. I love reading but that's really not enough for 180.

So just a few minutes ago, I just figured out what I really like to do and will make me happy. I must admit I'm such a nerd but I really want to go back to school to get another degree. That will make me so happy. I am very excited now and have to stop myself from waking up my H to tell him this. I was a good student and enjoyed writing, reading and getting good grades. I remember going to check out my grades after having my pupils dilated at the eye doctor and could not really read the grade posted.

I was in school for about 10 years straight but stopped. One of the reasons was because of my H. I felt strange to have more degrees but he had none. Now he got his associate degree, I think it is time for me to go back to school. With or without him, I guess.

I am excited now and even checked out some schools already. Now I won't be faking happiness when I talk to him later. I can picture him being happy for me too.