Quote: My other hangups include not enjoying cunnalingus. I never have. I've never been able to let go and relax enough to enjoy it. I'm sure my H misses our 69 days, but that was fairly rare even in the beginning. This is deep rooted from walking in on my mother while my stepfather was "going to town" on her, when I was 9. I prefer to be in darkness but have ML in candlelight. My body image has also contributed significantly to my hangups; as I gained weight I felt less attractive and less sexy. I felt ridiculously inferior to porn stars, as silly as that may be.
I hope I won't sound fatuous if I point out that to know so much about yourself and your own motivations and hangups, and the trouble they're causing for you, and be willing to live with them instead of doing something about them is something you might want to think about...
