Tootling along.

[Sotto]

Thanks everyone. I've decided I'll email H later tomorrow. I'm meeting up with SS and his mum for lunch, and don't want to feel 'on edge' thinking H may have replied. Or worse, receive a 'cold truth' reply and be feeling upset. So, I'll go for lunch and send it some time after that.

I just want to get myself to a calmer place for now. Seems a bit daft to be thrown for a loop by this after all I've been through already. But if H and I are in contact a little more, it should all feel a bit more 'normal' and hopefully I'll lose the 'flight/flee' impulse.

The more I think about it, the more I feel his getting in touch is part of a 'stress reaction' after getting made redundant. He could have got in touch on any day over the last few months. Why choose the day after you're made redundant to start addressing your marital impasse? IDK

Anyway - mindreading I know. I did manage to do yoga GAL yesterday and bookshop GAL this pm despite feeling a little hysterical...