Georgia, It takes time to work through grief. You are still having periods of grief and believe me, those feelings come out to play when you least expect them.
Georgia, you are feeling very insecure right now and it's understandable. First off, you are a very intelligent woman w/a heart of gold. Your h and his behavior have rocked your confidence to the very core. We all have had this happen to us...but guess what! When you look in the mirror, you will see a survivor, not a victim staring back at you. You will not see someone who is scared. You just have to work thru those feelings a while longer.
Georgia, whether it is your husband or someone new, you will find love again. But right now, you have to take care of yourself, physically, mentally and emotionally. You do not want to get into another relationship until you are healed. You want to go into a new relationship being the best you can be and not just to have someone hanging onto your hand/wrist just because you don't want to be alone. You want someone to be there because they want to be, to love you for who you are and who will do anything to ensure that you are safe, happy and loved.
George, it all takes time. You are trying to rush the crazy train down the tracks and it doesn't work that way. Rome wasn't built in a day and your healing process will take some time. I truly wish that I had a magic wand that I could use to wipe it all away for you.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
