Seperated, she is with someone - I'm desperate (2)

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Emailed WAW about my intentions to file taxes jointly and need for her tax info (w2, mortgage statement, etc.) in next few days. I was suspecting she might argue but came back with just "OK".

I would be lying if I said I didn't wish she was reaching out more but seems we've both pretty much went into NC mode and I've made it clear to her i can not and will not be her friend while she is in a relationship with another.

She did sent me a text last night to let me know FIL who I am also close to sold his vintage car he has had for many a year and it was bitterssweet. I waited 2 hours then texted back I'm sure it was tough and he is in my thoughts today. Too much?...maybe ignoring all together would have been the best option.

Boy do I wish I had a cheat code to fast forward to the end of this process...or at least to a time in future where things have stabilized either with R or D. I know this time of realization, grieving, acceptance, and personal growth is needed...a true test to how much pain one can endure and measure of who you really are. I hope I have enough strength to pass the test and come put the other side a better man ko matter the outcome. I've really been trying to talk to myself in a more positive way and trying to focus less on the bad things. I truly struggle in this area but I am trying.