barely holding on - 7

[u-turn]

Small update from last night and this morning:

she did want to talk a little last night, I left her alone for a little while to go do some things on my own after dinner, but as I was walking by "her room" she asked me to sit next to her. She was staring at me and tearing up a little, I asked what was on her mind.
she said " all of the would have, should have and could haves" I don't know what she really meant by that, but it meant a lot to her because she broke down to a full on blubbering sob (no disrespect intended). I let her compose herself, she reached to hold my hand, and I asked her "what do you think you'd like to do at this point?"

She said "get through this one day at a time - and that has nothing to do with him." Again - I don't know what this means and she is not making a lot of sense to me, but I am glad she is actually trying to tell me something, and the emotion she was showing me, I believe, was real - or academy award winning at least.

She did start out by sleeping on the couch, but sometime at night ended up in our bed again and reached for and held my hand this morning when we woke up.

I know she is going through big transitions at her work too - her current facility is shutting down and everyone is being re-assigned in other facilities. She will be starting a position at a much larger facility in a couple of weeks and she is transitioning there currently. I do not know where OM is going. Have not and I suppose will not ask.