Gwen, I can't imagine how the kids and I could ever relate to XH in a normal way again, after what he has put us through.

However, I've noticed that I'm somehow numb and a little repelled by the idea of closeness to anyone (in a romantic relationship sense).

I imagine it's some sort of ptsd.

Looking forward to tracking what phase i go though next.

I've been sad, mad, angry, feisty, passive, depressed, manic and empty, round and round and back and forth.

The only way forward is to go through it.