Aquarian, I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling blue because your posts to me have certainly helped me to cheer up. I have an idea you can consider. You do graphic and web design but have you considered a change of direction? My W was a fashion buyer before we started a family. She stayed at home to look after our children and although money was not really a problem she always hankered after a job. In London there is a shortage of childminders and for a year or so she looked after our nephew for my sister. He was the same sort of age as our toddler. After a while a neighbour asked her to look after her two sons and all of a sudden she had a new business. If you love children, child care is ideal because you do not have to commute, the costs are low and the money is good if you have two children. Now that ours are older (youngest is 11) toddlers just aren't part of our scene anymore but because she has had so much contact with the childcare world she now has a job as a classroom assistant at a local school which she absolutely loves. It also gives her a lot of pleasure telling me about her school day so we have a good line of communication there. Perhaps a change of direction is what you need too. I hope this helps, SD