Full transparency was a battle I lost. She adamantly refused (remember she still insists to this day that there was no affair because there was no sex) to provide me with access. I eventually dropped that demand because it was going nowhere, and I already had all the access I needed unbeknownst to her.

She has stuck to NC with regards to communication.

No, I don't feel like I can do anything right now. I went back 6 weeks and found nothing else like that, so it hasn't become a pattern yet. Still watching.

Ex Rzrback
Me 43 Her 44
D11, D15
T21, M19
BD 9/9/2014
Piecing

Sometimes if you want to see a change for the better, you have to take things into your own hands - Clint Eastwood