I think the speculating stuff is natural. It's hard not to wonder how we got here. I know sometimes I sit and ponder that for a loooong time. Last year at this time I was looking for a dress and shoes to wear to H's movie premiere complete with paparazzi, red carpet interviews, publicists, after parties, stars...and now I'm swiftly heading towards divorce. Lol!! It's laughable but oddly and arguably I'm happier. Huh. Interesting.
This thread has big things in store for you, I can feel it!!