I was tempted to make a post calling for you! Thank you so much for responding. I was in tears reading your words.
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Is the part-time job a solution to bring in more income, because you need it at this time, or is it to get you out of the house? I wasn't clear on that issue.


It started out as me getting out of the house but now it's both... with an emphasis on more income.
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Have I come close?


LOL don't you always?
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First, I can tell you that unless you land a part-time job that pays like a full-time one, you will actually be working at a loss. Meaning, it will cost you MORE to work outside the home part-time than if you stayed at home. Honestly, you would make more money watching other people's kids in your home. Do you really want to do that?


Exactly! That is why I know I need to work full time and it's such a blow to my ideals. Running my own daycare is definitely not my style! It was too much simply adding our cousin's child into the mix! What makes this even more frustrating is the fact that I want to rethink my career path and possibly take a course. The thought of just picking a job for the sake of contributing financially when I'm not sure what I want to be doing is kind of overwhelming!
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With both your kids under the age of five, I think you need to rethink what you realistically expect of yourself in terms of job satisfaction and ability to pull in money. Sure, you could go out and get a full-time job, but then someone else is watching your kids, and I'm sure there is a part of you saying, "if I do that, then why did I have kids?"


There's no need for any rethinking - you hit the nail on the head on how I feel. I don't understand why it's so difficult to look at the big picture and see this as such a shortlived circumstance but so beneficial to our kids.
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I think your H is not really thinking this through. And, the fact of the matter is, you can say NO, I'm not getting a job right now. You have that power. You can draw that boundary.


I've been doing this and it just keeps coming up and biting me in the butt. It's getting to the point now where I feel like getting a job will make it all *go away*. But what all will go away exactly???

Pam