My hesitation comes from the fact that I'm not entirely over the pain. It's not present all the time.
Yep. That is quite relatable. I struggle with that, too. The mind bending part of it is that academically, I know that dwelling on it and rehashing it is really, really poisonous in this stage. I have gotten over most of it, and I can keep the rest at bay most of the time. Still, there are those moments when I get emotionally "flooded" and just want to ask her why she did this or that...and if she understands exactly what it did to me...our son....an so on. Luckily, those moments are few and far between.
