I feel like I hit a vein and a million new pathways have appeared. My parents are moving back to the Midwest soon and I'm finding more and more job opportunities out of state. I am contemplating moving to the east coast soon. Also, although he is not the reason, guy I am seeing is out there. FYI it is not an internet relationship, just a guy I met in college at 19 that we dated for awhile back then. He still comes to California to see his parents but less and less due to his job.
It was kind of lonely because I had to work V day. But I've never been much into that holiday anyway. I think since it has been a year now since ex filed or this current relationship I've been having dreams of XH and I getting back together and being happy. Has anyone else had those? I don't want to get back together with him. I'm glad now this divorce has happened because I was miserable and he helped me see that when I had to live alone. But again he was my best friend for many years and we went from 65 to 0 overnight. I do miss our friendship. But the words he left me with was I was basically a horrible person forcing his hand to divorce me. I never so much as signed a paper in regards to the divorce but have looked past those words being glad I do not have to rewrite the past to justify my actions.
Overall, being as unscathed as i am a year later I am proud of how far i have made it. Even with bipolar disorder i maintained stability on my meds, did not take to drinking like i would in the last, and instead started to improve myself. I think mostly because of taking guidance from this site. i still have minor issues here and there but that's why i come back to you guys. :))
i still have minor issues here and there but that's why i come back to you guys. :))
