Susana (4) - Do you have to be confusin'?

[susana4]

Heading out to meet H for our dinner and comedy night now...

Going to repeat this to myself:

Something I keep repeating to myself this last week when H and I were spending time together - "he really *would* be a fool to leave me."

I'm not done growing but I do feel I have a lot to offer. I'm clever, hardworking, passionate, kind, attractive, fun. Oh, and a great cook. And the fact that I'm undertaking DBing shows my commitment and tbh, bravery - I am continuing to offer unconditional love in spite of everything. If you'd told me a year ago I'd DB, well I wouldn't have known what that meant first of all - but I wouldn't have believed you. I would have thought I was too proud to do that, and too afraid; I would have expected I would just run away because that is what I have done in the past.

I am learning to face fears.

I am learning to live in the moment, to be less critical, to be more accepting.

Yes, I'm still a work in progress, but I'm learning.

And if H can't see that, well then yes, he is a fool.

My approach tonight is 'beginner's mindset'. I'm trying to go in with a view that this is like a first date, with a guy that I want to get to know. And I do want to get to know this man who is my husband who I thought I knew, but apparently didn't. So, it's like a fact finding mission.. With flirtation and a red dress.