Part 13 - contents (un)lucky for some

[edz]

Hi Rd

I will check out your thread in a bit, (work on one screen DB on the other ), honestly..dont know..maybe. Think there's aspects of age in there (cant go into too much you know me and guarding her privacy regarding things not *directly* connected) she hasnt told me so but it certainly could be. I think the bulk was the way our family became skewed toward her and s with me off to the side, started with my work then I felt pushed out and isolated myself, internalising more and more, as I tried to cling on she freaked and distanced...and so on then my r with s or lack of it and throw in a dash of poisonous MIL to taste. There were/are health and other issues in there that I wont go into, never been any sign of other people but lots of other pressures.

Lots for me to own, my issues not relating to s, pushing him away, lack of care for myself, my health and appearance. Overwheliming co-dependency which did nothing for my appeal I imagine.

Additionally I dont think I was fully in tune with her ll and the huge, huge weight she put on relationship with s which was itself horribly skewed by my feeling sidelined by w and lack of being able to relate due to my childhood being impacted by grandparents and mothers illness/fathers work.

Of course this is just the stuff *I* own and work on. W was not fault free whether she is in a position to own those issues or not I cant really comment on.

Nothing I know of we couldnt work through if she chose to but, again, I have no idea if thats something she would choose.

As you say, there are stories of those WAS who then reunite and even remarry after being divorced for years and then coming back together. They do offer hope I must say.

Catch you soon

Edz