Bright, Sounds like you've been doing a lot of "manual" labor over the weekend. Boy, that can take a toll on those muscles that haven't been used for that type of work in a while. I'm sure your place looks refreshed and beautiful. You have a lot to be proud of in the work that you are doing.
Be kind to yourself. Letting go is not a sprint, but a marathon and it will take some time to do so.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
