In the end I did not answer H email - just left it alone.
Had a busy week - have organised the shipping of my belongings back to NZ - hopefully collection will be next week and the company will store it until I am ready for it to be shipped.
I have rented a room (in nz) in a house as a temporary stop so that I can give myself time to get a job and then I will be able to see how much I am earning which will give me a better idea of how much rent I can afford for my own place.The room is not available until after Easter so friends have offered a bed if I want to go back earlier and start my job hunt.
Just want to get going now - quite excited about getting on with life - new mantra is Calm and Simple - keeping life as calm and simple as possible ....well thats the idea, whether it happens in practice remains to be seen lol.
I know I have a long way to go and tough times ahead and I am sure h will add confusion and hurt along the way, but I am in a very different head space, much more clear and less skedaddled. I have ideas and thoughts about future plans and they don't include him -
I am off to London early March to do the touristy thing with a girlfriend which I am looking forward too.
Thanks for all your advice and support, I value it and appreciate you taking the time to help me along my journey. Having people who understand what i am going through - understand what my h is going through, really helps.
