Train, I can't say that I have any clue what it's like to be in your shoes. I can say that I have has some similar events happen and I am feeling some similar emotions lately. But something struck me as I'm reading your long post above. What hit me is the fact that as I wrestle with this crap in my own head I feel much like you do, but as I read your story I'm able to grip and understand things differently and relate them back to my own situation. I know this. If you don't get a harness and saddle on that resentment and break it, quickly, it will devour you and everything you hold dear. I'm a poster child for resentment. It has destroyed marriages, friendships, careers, hobbies, you name it. And that's just scratching the surface of my life. I don't feel very qualified to even speak to you about your situation as you have far more flight time here and other veterans here know you and DBing much better, but that's what jumped out at me.
Me 47 - W 35 M 9 - T 10 2 Daughters - 7 & 9 Discovery of EA- 8/4/14 S - 8/5/15 D mentioned - 9/11/14 R & Piecing - 3/17/15 Regard one another as more important than yourselves. - Philippians 2:3
