uR, have you ever read the book, Bud, Not Buddy? It's a children's novel(around intermediate grade-level) and one of my faves.
Anyway, the character, Bud, who is an orphan during the Depression talks about how ideas start as tiny seeds. And how its amazing that a tiny seed can grow into a mighty maple.
Well... that post^^ right there, that you did... reminded me of a tiny seed.
I know you grew into a mighty maple. And... you have planted a seed in me.
I guess I hadn't really thought about the anger coming back. I haven't seen it in so long. I really thought he'd gotten rid of it. He said to me about 2 months ago, he didn't understand why he was always so angry (in our marriage) and it was so unnecessary. I was actually surprised at how unangry he has been the past couple of months. Even when I, (gulp), tried to engage in a fight with him- yeah... I had some moments.
But, I think you are right, and I think that was the first little sign. He still blamed me for a lot of s17's mistakes. Even when s17 would call him out and show him he was angry at him. But... that's part of it.
Just on a side note... some things that show he still has a long way to go... (I knew this when he came back, and was worried about how much he had to go... but thought he'd be around for it... duh)
Anyway, I was thinking how he was playing the lotto every time and was really hoping that it would solve his problems.
And, he would talk, still about escaping. Moving away or moving off the grid.
Well... enough about him. These are simple reminders to allow my seeds to take root. To be firm. Strong. And... seeds don't need other seeds to grow. It only takes one seed to grow into a mighty maple!
