Hopeless in NYC

[eclipse]

I didn't know I was so far gone. I tend to dig around in my memories a lot these days, and I realize now that the W was talking about divorce since the summer! She was actually describing how we would go our separate ways, and that she would even help me find someone else--WTH? I don't know what's wrong with me, but I am really afraid now. How could I have been so oblivious? I was doing better since the start of that year, but apparently was also doing worse at the same time. How is this possible? Was I becoming unstable? Will need to discuss in IC.