Was the past 18 years just a waste?

[June315]

H seems down from not having a phone. Tonight he also said the car insurance going to hit him soon and all his checks bounced left and right. We have separate bank accounts and bills (from the drug days). I just said your disability check will be here soon and did not offer to help.

He later said he was hungry several times. Well, I did not cook tonight so did not leave him any foods. Usually, I would go and find him something to eat. Not tonight.

The best part of tonight was that when he came home, I was smiling and said I have something funny to show him on the computer. He came to me without me reminding him and ask me to show him. I laughed and smiled showing him something funny from work. Hr looked confused and asked if I was OK.

Small steps for me. I can only change myself.

Now my story, I signed up for meet up and will definitely do something this weekend.