You're right Vince. I'm having a real hard time with deciding exactly what it is I want to do and what path to follow. The part of me that loves him and wants him to be there for our D4, wants to be patient and follow through. Then there's the part which on a weekly basis finds out more and more about the involvement of another woman as the trigger for all this and that parts makes me want to tell him off repeatedly and be done with it. A few days ago I did in fact tell him off, it resulted in us having probably the most honest and intimate talk that we've had during our entire marriage but it also did a lot of damage, since he said he was considering coming back but couldn't like this. Part of me thinks that may just be B.S. to buy more time away. He's making no movement in the legal proceeding direction and this time. I wish I could read his mind. He'll come over to spend time with our daughter and does, but I watch them interact and he will be looking out of the corner of his eye to see if I'm watching. So yeah, I still need to commit to one decision, it's so hard when I miss him and watch to choke him at the same time.
