Hope everyone had a sadness-free Valentines Day. I didn't really notice it too much. I did meet a cute guy at a party and danced with him.
H texted me to ask me to lunch the other day but I declined. Last contact was a week before when he complimented me on a work accomplishment. Prior was a few weeks before that when he asked to meet up to give me some of my things he still has. Despite his friendly contact my feelings toward him have been of the negative variety.
More and more I am disgusted by his behaviors, doubtful of his intentions and wondering whether I ever loved him.
I think this new phase is also spurred by something a friend told me. We had not seen each other in some time and he was asking for an update on the situation. I explained some of the latest developments and interactions. His reaction was basically "he sounds like an absolute loser, why are you still speaking to him?"
Later the friend apologized for such a blunt comment, but I didn't take it that way at all. It actually shocked me into realizing that he was right. My H was being a huge idiot and loser, and no matter how kind and honorable he had been in our relationship, he is no longer that respectable person. If I met him today I would find him irritating and ridiculous. Maybe this is just a phase, but it is a phase I want no part of.
Thanks for reading my thoughts friends, keep the jokes and poems coming!
