Complex #5 - progress and throwbacks

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It's also I teresting how I now "catch" myself violating my own rules. And also when I act like a child emotionally. Being frustrated, wanting to cry for attention, wanting to fix things, control things that I can't.

My W knows all of this too. She is trained to observe these things as a nurse plus she's a woman..so it's hard to hide those feelings. I have to live and become my values.
I can do this! I just need to blend these side effects out and deal with it.
I know everything has to run its course now.
Today is the first day of the rest of my life!