Good morning- Today has not started out so well, work is dragging by and all I can do is think about W and OM. It's really tough sometimes to be able to pull yourself out of that funk you know you’re either headed to or already in. I found myself worrying about the future and saddened that I might be alone for a long time. But then again I guess there is no better time to find myself than when I am forced to be alone. I have gotten out almost daily this past week and at those times it did feel ok. I still thought about W but not as much as times like this. I thought that journaling right before bed would help but I am not seeing the results that I was hoping for. I still dreamt of her and woke up feeling angry and resentful; this is an almost daily cycle. I wish there was a time table when things would start to get better we have been apart a month and I don’t see any signs of a reconciliation any time soon. She really seems to be enjoying herself without me. That is actually a very harsh reality to accept. But I will keep breathing until one day the pain lessens and I can look forward to a brighter day. I need to stay strong and resist my urge to talk to her.
