I recognise all you have said in your last few paras. But acceptance of things outside of your control is crucial here.
Your W may or may not decide to end A. She may or may not decide to get help with alcohol and become the best person she can be and so on.
All is pretty much outside of your control and it's a waste of effort wishing it were different. It isn't. Best to work on acceptance and evenness (rather than getting riled up) when you hear from her. Vanilla's thread has some useful info. She responds very calmly to her WH.
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
