You've got yourself twisted around the axle with needing to nknow the why of his leaving. Is there and answer that will make you feel less pain? Think about that, what would make this OK.
This is gold, labug. I sometimes get caught up in the whys also, although I recognize it as unproductive and try not to stay there. My D16 is T1D. I don't know why. And even if I could somehow pinpoint why, it wouldn't take the disease away from her. Point made.
