Part 13 - contents (un)lucky for some

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Thanks RD, yes most things are ok. Money is a problem but I have some plans for rejigging. Have a thread of lonliness at the moment, I'd like someone to share times with, I have been out with friends at the office more, GAL swimming etc (didnt get to the gym yet as Ive wonderfully been quite busy with s) but throughout Im feeling something missing in not having my partner.

Maybe was like that before and was just swamped with feeling I needed someone to affirm I existed and it would all be ok, past that now so maybe - as I mentioned - this is the next layer of the onion.

We shall see I suppose.

Yes, much as I want w back I dont, ever, want things as they were before bd. In retrospect they were quite awful for all of us, I believe I know what I needed to and continue to work on in myself and feel Im progressing but W has issues that brought problems and issues she still needs to work on for herself regardless of the M (her dependency on s's time for one). Thats on top of her wanting to work on the m and thats before we get to the chewy core of her actually wanting to still be with / have feelings for me.

Sigh, well they say peeling onions makes you cry I suppose