hmmmm. Time to vent. It's been awhile? Saturday when H dropped off S, he mentioned he wanted to see S yesterday, before we left. Asked my plans for the day, which was nothing but getting ready for trip. Didn't hear from him until 6:00, asked if he could come over about 7:30. On his way, he called and asked if we ate or should he pick up something for himself, ya, for himself. I told him we had not eaten yet and there was enough for him. So, H shows up, has dinner, talked about how exhausted he was, thought he almost had a heart attack that day and had to lay down. Long silly story. Then rummaged through my freezer and helped himself to ice cream. Spun S around on my new swivel chair that came with the couch even though I asked him not to. The thing is brand new and I don't want it to break! He completely ignored me. Then he grabbed cell phone, want to bathroom, and came out letting S know he was getting ready to go. So obvious. A full blown teenager he has become.

So it left me thinking once again. Am I being TOO nice? I sense some cake eating here. Bothered me. So I had asked FIL to watch our dog while away but H insisted she will be fine at his place. S and I left this morning with plan for H to pick her up today. At 5:00, my cat sitter let me know dog is still home. She was worried that H would forget about her. H just replied to my TM that we made our trip safe. So I asked, did you get dog ok? He replied he was on his way to get her, that he had some running around to do today. BS. It's 9:00. I am so sick of his self absorbed a** I replied, um...ok..If you are....too busy....please just let your dad watch her.

You guys, I feel ready to blow. His self absorption has reached a level that I am fed up with and I am tired, so tired, of keeping the peace. This weekend has just done it for me. I think I am making this way too easy for him. I try, for S, to have him over with open door. But am I letting him cake eat?

I suppose it comes down to what feels right for me, what I can put up with. Your thoughts please?


Me 48 H 46 S 11
M 2004
BD 8/13
H moved out 2/15
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