newbie needs help part 5

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It's been a couple weeks since I posted. I have been staying at my sisters house 10min minutes away from home. I drive home during the week every morning at 6am when stbxw leaves for work. I get the kids up at 730 to take to school. I take the kids out to dinner one night during week and have had them 1 night each of the last 2 weekends. My waw has come into talk a few mornings when I get home in morning. Conversations have been pleasant no R talk. I have not initiated any contact with her. She will call or text me daily of which I respond with texts unless she ask me to call. I have been having a really hard time. It seems everyone is happy when I do call home to talk to the kids. I do miss her and the kids. I know the only thing I can do at this point is keep going dark. The D process is still not moving to fast. We have talked about splitting assets up and selling the home this spring. I have done nothing to help her with anything around home when I am there in the mornings. I look back at the past 18 months and still can't believe this has happened. The woman I married is gone. It seems so much damage has been done and so much hurt that it feels like there is no longer anything.