I finally did get an answer to all of my emails from last week in one email. Re: the email I had sent first wondering was it me, was it him, etc., this is what he said:

"I'm not really sure what more you want from me regarding the closure you need. I guess I could talk with you about those things or answer any questions you have again, but I feel like I've already done and told you what I felt was necessary."

Am I just completely clueless? I feel so lost because I still don't feel like I really know at all why he is doing this, but yet he feels like he told me that already. He's told me a variety of contradictory things to the point where I don't know which end is up. He's said it's got nothing to do w/ this girl from work, but then he talked about how they have so much in common and he really likes her but doesn't know how she feels about him. He's said it's all about him but then said I didn't treat him right. ??? Do I just give up on asking him anything? I just want, in print, some concrete and specific answers. Do I try and describe my confusion with more specific examples? Maybe it's just not possible to get that information from him. But if he really doesn't know or can't describe it, I want to HEAR HIM SAY he doesn't know or can't describe it, rather than me saying "I don't think he knows." I want to be able to tell myself "He told me he doesn't even know." How do I get past that??

I'm really bothered by the phrase "done and told you what I thought was necessary." It makes it sound like there are other things or reasons that he doesn't feel necessary to tell me, but they DO in fact exist. Ugh. Over a year later and why am I still crying over interacting with this person?


Me:30 H:29, no kids
T:12, M:4 (when D was final)
12/13: "Don't think I want to be M anymore"
6/14: Separated (I move)
1/15: H filed for D
5/15: D final