Did you actually pick up a copy of the books yet? You're doing alot of mistakes that are detailed in there and it's not fair that you expect people to spoon-feed you answers.
We all did the work and studied the books. It's how you know what the right path to take is.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
