Tonight was pretty neutral. I expected pullback but there wasn't really, but nor was he quite as warm and flirtatious as yesterday. It did feel comfortable and strangely domestic and from the outside looking in, I'm sure we would have looked like a normal husband and wife.
After work, we walked home together and H asked "what shall we make for dinner tonight?" I said I was making risotto.
We chatted on the way home, but he was pretty quiet today so I tried my best to mirror him, and not push for conversation or fill the conversational gaps. I cooked while he listened to some podcasts, then we ate dinner. We had some wine and we sat on the sofa together, him watching TV and me reading a book.
Then I decided to make pancakes because tomorrow is pancake day but I'm out GALing. He was pretty excited and I was too. One thing I'm really confident about is my cooking, and I make some pretty ace pancakes. Even the first one turned out perfect!
The pancakes earned me a lot of praise and 4 hugs in the space of 10 minutes.
Then H announced he was in a grump today and didn't know why but thought it might be due to tiredness so he wanted to go to bed early. I asked him why he was in a bad mood but he didn't really respond so I didn't press him (a 180 for me) and made a joke, then left the room.
Overall is was a nice relaxed night but it felt so much like one of our average nights pre-BD it was a bit disconcerting.
One strange thing - I've been making an effort to be more appreciative (a 180) because I realised I never really thank him for what he does around the house. So I've been thanking him for lots of things, like taking out the trash or doing the dishes. And tonight he asked me to stop thanking him so much, saying he doesn't deserve it as the stuff he does is not worth thanking for! Wtf? I said I appreciate what he does and I want to thank him. I plan to continue but it was odd.
Hug count tonight: 10
Me 28 / H 28 M 1 / T 2.5 BOMB 12-3-14 "I don't feel like myself any more" Still living together, separate rooms.
