"Met with IC. W does not speak about D or OW in her sessions at all. I simply cannot fathom why W is not talking about what she is doing with 95% of her time or with what she tells me is her #1 priority in the world (D6) yet spending little time with D as she has to run....still running. "
Because it's not about you or your D. It's about her. She's trying to sort things out.
"I have been told I am looking for a magic bullet more than once, and it is true, I have been. But as the reality that magic bullets are not going to work sinks in, I realize I have been at this now for 140ish days of misery and I am going no-where fast. W speaks less to me now than she did 45 days ago. W comes and goes and has complete disregard for family at this stage. Seems like she is at rock bottom but I have no clue how long she can last there."
She's not at rock bottom. She hasn't lost anything yet. My W went through her journey for 3.5 years before she even started talking to me. And I mean just saying 'hello'.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.