W still having PA with OP

[4mendmj]

Met with IC. W does not speak about D or OW in her sessions at all. I simply cannot fathom why W is not talking about what she is doing with 95% of her time or with what she tells me is her #1 priority in the world (D6) yet spending little time with D as she has to run....still running.

46 hours now with no cigarettes. Proud I made it to IC and back without stopping as that is a stresful time. Still considering filing for D. Been 6 days now since I learned she was leaving even in the mornings to go see OW before work and it just seems so desparate to me, so drug addict pathetic. I meet with the lawyer tomorrow morning because lawyer recommended doing Ex Parte temp sole custody order if I file but I don't understand how that is going to help me when both W and I are in the home. Does that mean I get sole custody and then I have to remove D6 from our home and we both go to my folks or what? Not cheap to see the lawyer for 30 minutes but at least I have my half dozen questions written down.

I have been told I am looking for a magic bullet more than once, and it is true, I have been. But as the reality that magic bullets are not going to work sinks in, I realize I have been at this now for 140ish days of misery and I am going no-where fast. W speaks less to me now than she did 45 days ago. W comes and goes and has complete disregard for family at this stage. Seems like she is at rock bottom but I have no clue how long she can last there.