Sage- Thanks a million for the words of encouragement. At this point, I have done what I could today. Screwed up as much as I could, and taken steps toward the future.
I looked at an apartment today, and if all goes well, I will be in it by at least the middle of next week. Other than that, I am not pushing for anything right now. I just know I can't be in the house anymore. I have to move out right now for me, and my own emotional health. It is a lot easier to detach in a place that isn't full of memories and belongings and such of Dustin and our life together.
I have to get this apartment for me. I have to. He wants to help with costs and me moving in, and I am going to let him. I still won't file, but I won't stay in this stuck place either. I need physical distance just as much as he does right now. Does that seem dumb to you guys? Hugs, Myrrh
One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.
