Part 13 - contents (un)lucky for some

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Morning

Nope, will tease you all with those need to get some money issues sorted first and working today along with drains people coming. All connected to swimming and pma I'll leave that thread hanging there.

Sounds like we have similar weather to you today Toots grey, grey, grey and raining in spurts - urgh

So fell sleep watching house of cards last night really enjoying that, was split as I loved the original UK version and wasnt keen on a US remake but its Kevin Spacey so gave it a go, up to about the 4th episode (fell alseep at this point) really great.

This morning I paid for the late night though groggy with the alarm doesnt cover it, still will get a break and make coffee soon.

Otherwise got to go up to the pet store at lunch time, aforementioned drains (fish and these arent connected) and making a curry with chicken and the leftover veg and pork from yesterday tonight.

Add in some more House of Cards thats the current plan!

Nothing from w since last night, suppose I'll now get the flipside of all the conversation from yesterday with little contact, will just need to suck it up for now. It did feel very cathartic yesterday having that call, I do feel after thinking (not obsessing) it over that the whole issue of s not being about all the time is now biting at her, as you said toots her not having the opportunity to be around s every day is a consequence of leaving, while we stay as we are she wont see him mostly at weekends (as she wants to h.e. in the week) if we move to divorce it will mean doing what a few divorced h.e. people I've looked into do, on "holidays" s could come to me and I'd book leave as well as me having him for some education trips, maybe swimming and exercise as well as the odd week where I book some time and we do his teaching.

I dont think w is ready to not see s for 7 days or so though. We touched upon this yesterday without specifics (I was also keen she direct the conversation as much as possible rather than me push) and yes, if we reconciled we would all be together even if w or i took s out "for the day" etc he would be coming back. However we didnt dwell on that and I need w to commit to any reconciliation being for both of us not *just* to resolve being around s.

Anyway she's not at a decision yet, Im not sure when or if she'll get there. My point to her yesterday was to reaffirm my position, I dont want to d, that s and I have and re rebuilding and that I just want her to decide what she needs to do. If it involves reconciliation I'll be there 100% but we both need to want to do that for it to work.