The Owl and the Pussycat

[Lyrael]

Dazed -
Weeelll - I dunno bout being day-to-day anymore. He won't be sleeping here this evening. On the other hand, niether of us has really moved stuff out yet either.

He and I have talked today, and I asked him if he wanted anything from here, and he said "no." I added "because I assumed you wouldn't be staying here." He replied "I think if I was there, we would fight."
And I told him I understood. Then I said, I was going to write this to you in an e-mail, but I am just going to say it. I don't want to fight anymore, but I don't want you out of my life. I am going to get back in counseling and just work on myself."
Then we got off the phone fairly quickly, and about thirty minutes later he called to say it looked stormy and asked me to take the garbage out. It was kind of a long message...well, anyway - I believe that I will be sleeping alone again for a while, but I am not going to do anything drastic just yet. I am just going to "be." Going to work, taking the kiddo to daycare, reading fabulously long fiction books, taking bubble baths, talking to friends on the phone. I am not as scared this time, no matter what happens. I just know what I am going to do for myself.
I only have one life, so I am going to live it.
Myrrh