I have spent several hours reading today. Finished DB and just read part 1 of DR "The Divorce Trap". I think both spouses should be forced to read it before any Divorce takes place. I really don't want to give up on my M but I know for now I'm on my own and have zero control on W and her actions and mindset. I do know I played a big part in our marital problems as all spouses do. It's just very sad that when one of you wants so badly to do whatever it takes to save the M, the other has no interest.

I realize these steps are to help me. I have no contact with W and she is with someone else so it seems very unlikely to me that she will ever take notice. I know I need to do this for me, just wish we were still in the same house so there was an opportunity for her to witness my life and see how I've grown.

I'm sure we all feel like we are losing the loves of our lives, I certainly do....otherwise we wouldn't be fighting so hard to try to make things work knowing we are the only side trying at this point. I will most likely break from reading for a few hours as I've been at it all day but I truly miss her, truly love her, truly want us.


M: 44 W: 45
Married 26
Together 28
D: 22, S: 18, S: 9, D: 7
S: 12/2013, seperate houses
OM revealed first 10/2013, stopped seeing him
OM revealed 1/2015, been going on for quite some time