Just checking in before I head to the shower before church. I am concerned for you. I have a rather crappy case of PMS right now so I will wait to chat with you until I feel better--both physically and emotionally.
Anyway, I think you've got some good goals to work with.
But for clarification, why are you not contacting Dustin at all? Will Rhane miss talking to him or does he not speak enough to chat on the phone? I just want to make sure that I understand what you need from the no contact rule.
I hope that you find peace in this journey, Myrrh. I really do. I'm glad you understood that dealing with this now is a good idea. You're so young, and you have so much of life ahead of you. I know you don't see it from that perspective, and I can't blame you a bit... but this nearly 42 year old person understands how much life there is to live between the age of 23 and 42. SO MUCH.
You deserve to live it as happily and as productively as possible. It's time to bury the past and put it away once and for all. I'm so glad you made that choice.
((((((((((Myrrh)))))))))))
Find a reason to be nice to yourself today. Understand that no matter how often you want to paint yourself as a bad person here, you're going to find a few of us who refuse to see you that way.
Bets
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
