The Owl and the Pussycat

[Lyrael]

My mother-in-law called a little bit ago. I did tell her that I will be looking for an apartment for S and I in the next couple of weeks.

Honestly, guys, I don't believe there is or should be any excuse, justification, or forgiveness for physical violence in a relationship. It goes far beyond dishonesty, hurtful words, or even blatant infidelity. I believe what I did is unforgiveable, and I believe that Dustin feels (rightly) that his only option is to end the relationship, not only for his own happiness, but for both our physical safety. I can fix my problem of anger in my own life, but I really believe it is too late for Dustin and I, and I will not stand in his way when he files these papers.

What would you guys say if I came here and posted that I told my husband it was over, and he physically attacked me? You would suggest a restraining order, calling the police, etc - and you would think me totally justified in fighting back. You would most wisely suggest that I never see him again in private, and that I seek counseling for both me and my son to ensure that my spouse wasn't being physically violent with him - "hiccup" incident or not, it was inexcusable and unforgiveable. Michelle even mentions that there a few marriages which shouldn't be saved, and she lists ones involving physical violence among those.

I signed the death warrant of my marriage when I let that fight get physical.
This sucks so bad, to not even feel like I deserve to be with my husband now.
Myrrh