barely holding on - 7

[u-turn]

The cycle continues:

I did not start the conversation last night because I was not in the right frame of mind. I had dinner with kids & W and we went to our corners.

But I am still feeling like I need to continue yesterday's conv.

She is continuing to do nice things for me, make me breakfast, bought me some craft beer while they were out, and still trying to make normal conversation. All of this is just covering the issues at hand and I don't want to do this any more.

If I ask her: is it your intention to continue your affair? her response would drive the conversation.

or

I say - if your intention is to continue your affair, then no amount of nice acts toward me will help. It is just a sham. You do not need to hide anything from me or lie to me any more. You will need to carry on this way away from this house as it is completely disrespectful to me and the kids. I will not cover for you or lie for you any more either.

I am feeling very unsettled again today.