Jefe - The Beginnings of Courting - #9

[Jefe]

The movie didn't pan out. Which actually was fine with me. I felt like we were moving a little fast. I need to back up just a bit and catch up.

Blogging:

For breakfast yesterday I got her a nice card, some chocolate, a beautiful red/white/black flower arrangement with antique roses, black Lilies and assorted floral stuff and a single long stemmed Fire and Ice rose laid across her plate. I also found a old Polaroid of her in a brown pant suit (I remember that suit well) that apparently her mother took. Written on the bottom of it: "2/14/06 - Interview day at Se*****" That was the company I worked at back then. That was the day she walked into my life. I had forgotten it was Valentines day. I digress, I photocopied the Polaroid and wrote a nice little thing at the bottom and put it with her card. All in all, breakfast went very well.

After breakfast she had to go to work for her usual Sat 10-12 hour shift. She called and texted all day, I mean a lot.

The basic gist of the communication was that she's ready and wants to come home but she's scared that we will go back to the old situation and that I will have no trust for her and I will express it poorly. I told her I expected full transparency and she agreed to that. She said there's nothing going on with anybody (and the intel I have supports that). I think Hope414 was right in the sense that I don't think she thought the grass was greener with anyone else. I think she was medicating inappropriately. She basically said as much, the other day. I told her the best thing we could do was stop living in all the past hurts and just start making new, good memories from this day forward. Again, I digress.

Situation is, I think she is ready to move into piecing. I have not gotten her to agree to the pastoral counseling as of yet but I think she will soon enough. We called off the movie because it just was all very fast. I went and got us some dinner from one of our favorite little neighborhood Cajun restaurants last night instead. She didn't get off work until 8 and didn't get to the house till 9. She was exhausted, mentally and physically. Me too. So we ate very fast and called it a night. We did text several times later.

And... there you have it. There's so much more to it but this is the simplified version.