Awakening

[tonibertha]

I've not been on here since my last post. Think I really need to be back here now.

So, my husband never moved in. He keeps postponing the move.

I've been angry at this but continued with him. Things have been ok, he's loving,mostly.

Two big Red flags: We had a fight the day before Christmas, so he didn't turn up at mine for Christmas, and refused to pick my calls all day. At my request, he called DD, and I feel pretty sure that I heard girls' voices in the background. He says he was at his friend's, a last minute Christmas plan. I didn't ask about the voices I feel I heard, but it really hurt that he disappeared for Christmas. Anyway I tried to put my fears away and focus on making the Relationship good.

We've been meeting up most weekends, he initiates this. Since weekends were a big issue in the past as he always had 'guy' so nights', I've been pretty happy.

So, yesterday, being val's day he turned up as planned, but told me at the start that he'd need to nip out at 8 pm for an hour to pick up a jacket he'd lost in a club the week before. I agreed, but when the time came, asked if he'd consider going there another day. He flew off the handle, saying that I don't trust him. Things escalated as we both argued our points, and he stormed out.

He didn't end up coming back, and chatting today, he says he's at the same friend's as Christmas. I know the guy, he's a mutual friend, but I just don't believe my H. Could he be seeing someone else and have spent both events with her?

What do I do now? I love him, but maybe I should just give up on us? I can't bear it if he's cheating again. I don't believe him, but how do I confront him without proof? And what would be the purpose of that? I am thinking of just going no contact. I am so embarrassed, can't talk to friends / family about this.

Please help...